Sylvanna Devlin

Wait till the second one is written. Gang abuse of the same kind

Apparently all this really is about my book exposing the basics of being on the receiving end of Reactive Abuse.

Their response is to not quietly hope it never becomes something. It is to loudly and obnoxiously push to kill me, so the book is never found – should Amazon be able to fix search results or I find the right Agent when I have a secure enough computer.

Right now I need military grade technology to counter the same with a massive budget.

Women in America have become so abusive, so many of them. They’d rather silence objections than come to terms with their own behavior. Americans are known for being an angry lot.

Yeah with this subtext in the culture everyone would be. Women abuse men, they get angry. Women point the finger. Men abuse women – sexually and physically and women feel justified taking it out on everyone.

I have indeed been sexually abused by more than one man. I have indeed been through psychological torture – and sometimes with sound so loud it became physical.

My ear canals have both partially collapsed. A hearing test reveals I can still hear. Which their goal was to avoid – if I lived.

Groups of women have tried to wipe out my existence – sometimes manipulating men or paying for them to join in.

Because silencing me is apparently more inviting than the therapy they all fucking need.

It’s not that Men are never abusive. Or the victim always incites it to happen. If the push button see-saw of reactive abuse is so difficult to understand there’s one single book on it.

It’s called “Game Over.”

I wrote it.

And now I’m subject to such intense abuse from women who don’t know when or how to “shut it” my PTSD alone qualifies me for disability let alone the Bipolar and Fibromyalgia I already had. The second triggered by my ex. And the first so dangerous I run from mania at every turn.

I spend more time battling depression or hanging out in euthymia because mania is that fucking dangerous. So is dysphoric mania. Thank you. Take your arm chair psychologically somewhere else. I was the actual victim so my analysis doesn’t invite or equate to your uneducated opinion.

I tried everything I could to save my marriage.

No regrets allowed.

But it wasn’t something that one person could save and my ex didn’t really want to stop the abuse party.

The PTSD from that triggered my pain disorder. “Bitches and cunts” made the PTSD worse

Yes my pain is “in the mind” where do you think yours is received? Oh wait – all pain is “in the mind”

Pain is pain honey you don’t get to say it’s “not real”

Oh yeah? Have you experienced hot lava nerves? No. Well I have. That’s real pain.

Your childbirth, by reports, is on the level of a Galbladder going bad and I thought I was dying.

Nerve pain has its own scale. The worst of which I hope you never really understand any other way than your imagination.

Should you find it again.

Women don’t have the monopoly on pain, being victimized, being on the receiving end of bullying, harassment, abuse and prejudice. So you can take that “chip off your shoulder” now.

You want better? Be better.

I’d like to go back to being soft and sweet if you don’t mind.

Oh wait, apparently you do.

Well sweetie, my claws are mighty and fast. So it’s just as well, “you don’t scare me” is now uttered by every abusive little whining asshole out there.

Good.

Thanks for that.

Maybe my writing will stop scaring you too. So I can move on with my own life and maybe you could get one of your own.

Apparently they didn’t get the memo that their opinion is irrelevant and “the best picture of me” is currently unnecessary.

And no. I can’t spell it. I’m a dyslexic writer okay? That means my passion for writing is more powerful than my disabilities with it.

Let’s see you overcome your bullshit okay?

And shut the fuck up.

Seems pretty difficult I know.

I invite you to

Practice.

I couldn’t easily find one with make up.

Just can’t be bothered most of the time.

And not sure what to do with the fact I look like a dancer when I see it. I’m complimented on its subtlety. And abusive bitches everywhere complain “I don’t do it right. Why are you bothering?”

Why indeed.