There is an issue I’ve noticed that is a little surprising to me. I have been fairly isolated and those I lived with I trusted. When I couldn’t trust my spouse anymore it was over. For me, trust is synonymous with love. I really don’t worry over looks or even demeanor. Just how much I…

But hilarious. Apparently someone said “Obey me. Say a nonsense phrase” And asleep I replied “aleph fievel farfegnugen” Which is probably the politest way to say “fuck off, you fuckwit” I can imagine. Aleph is the symbol for infinity in mathematics Fievel is a Yiddish name meaning “smart one” – that I’m pretty sure was…

My partially dislocated jaw has become a painful issue. So I’m trying to hold my jaw in place and get the muscles to sort out the rest.

I am harassed and harangued and unsure I even know who I’m living near anymore. But they escalated their threats, lies, and instigation of fights after I booted them from my internet. Before I did so, there were endless sounds of harassment from surrounding audio equipment (like a google play). I didn’t have them in…

But bored of selfies

I’m buying a journal with some basic questions to answer for myself. And it doesn’t matter how strange or even stupid the questions seem. Anyone who doesn’t understand why I feel like writing this down is lucky enough not to have ever had someone try to stamp out their personality. So my questions? Who am…

The evils of Nuerolinguistic programming require first making a mind mailable. Medication can do it overnight, depression for some, torture if one is so inclined, and an onslaught of abuse so psychologically twisted eventually cognitive function fucks off. The gray matter is open to manipulation. The cult after me tried since 2022 to break in,…

You can’t tell if you’re hot or cold, if you aren’t hungry, want comfort food, or could do with eating. If it’s morning or night becomes fluid and uncertain. What day is it again? Yes that can happen. And yes. Brainwave manipulation can even cause blackouts. This can’t continue.

Okay. I am a bit different. Met lots of people and had something in common with all of them – which is not normal! I can communicate to most people using their style and relate to their experiences And then explain that to someone else using that other persons perspective as my guide. Indeed the…

PS what can intense and strenuously performed conditioning do? While you are unconscious direct you to “part your legs” And you do. My conscious brain put a stop to it and the only way to try again is abuse and I lock my door. But it was done to me with the hopes to create…