It’s not that there isn’t precedent for alluring cult leaders dragging women to their doom. It’s that beyond brainwashing and abuse, there just has to be more there. Putting aside PUA techniques like “negging” and “punishment” strategies including withdrawal of affection. Because almost any asshole can do that. Someone magnetic enough to convince women to…

Meanwhile I keep falling asleep and have serious bed hair happening Why I’m getting contacts in August

Someone with a high degree of access to sophisticated means of hacking, decided to practice his nasty work on me. And has for the past four years. As he’s stretched those tendrils out in all the “honeypots”… oh wait that’s usually a certain kind of woman. Those too I suppose. But whomever they bait and…

Driven into a froth, pushed past the point of madness anyone would struggle to bite their tongue, keep their volume under control. Or at least one of these things. So much at the tip, nastiness others would delight in. It’s not that such things never occur to me. It’s that words have consequences. I keep…

I am trying to escape this building and my current stalker is still obsessed with taking my cat and my writing. And with my destruction. Everyone in the building claims to hear me no matter how quietly I mutter. And when it’s more than a mere utterance they dare to complain. Like I want them…

It’s come to my attention that while there’s been a different set of gaslighting and reality abuse every weekend. The crux of the issue is the abuse itself. The situation has a ring leader and bullies who are literally abusing me for the fun of it. I have had to contact the police and the…

I’m fucking tired of trying to be on guard while you lie about whether you can hear me or not – or you know full well how but won’t do anything about it. I can’t stop you from being invasive fucking assholes who listen in and snipe on the way past. Sometimes deliberately misinterpreting what…

So I’m less speeding to an escape and more limping along till I can get to a hotel as a safe place to be while hoping to go somewhere secure. My “captures” caught wind of where and have already begun a defamation campaign with falsified “evidence” and generally shitting on what was my good name.…

An angry pit of nerves That’s how we describe the feeling of a stone in your stomach. The not quite ready to puke but nauseated sign of fear. It’s accompanied by a strange sensation akin in to the flu but not quite as debilitating. Too hot, too cold, too wobbly in the knees and maybe…