Sylvanna Devlin

I have mentioned that I am pansexual but lean towards a preference for male bodied genderqueer individuals. It’s not that I would turn away the attention of a man who is gentle in the living room. It’s that I prefer those who identify somewhere else on the gender wheel but I certainly could be convinced to be more flexible.

A lot of individuals in my generation have no label for how they’ve felt all their lives which is frankly, none of “those” when the world was binary only.

Younger generations have different feelings but some (myself included) want to change and push perception of our preferred gender.

I was mistaken for a boy at five and was quite upset. I grew my hair out and wore skirts and climbed trees in heels!

I want to change stereotypes of what women can be like. But I am settled into my gender. I find it unreasonable and unfair to presume to describe the dysmorphia felt by those who know they lean elsewhere but not to what. I am lucky and won’t say more than there are labels and the gender wheel.

The spectrum is a circle not a line. You can be middle one way or an entirely different gender elsewhere on the wheel but lean towards one of the others.

There are resources and ways to explore gender and gender orientated therapists. I don’t feel comfortable telling anyone what to do or where to look. Only that those of us attracted to that gender need a better term.

I’m still attracted to men and have sexually been with a woman or two. But attraction is more than how the body leans. Otherwise gender as an identity wouldn’t really exist.

It does, and labels help, and some of have settled on a different more average gender for ourselves but are very interested in door number three.

We exist, they exist. Genderqueer individuals are coming out of the closet. What do we say about those of us are considered a little gay for being pansexual, but really that’s because our minds are set on a direction of attraction we have no particular label for.

What am I like? A ferocious dragon in public, or mischievous pixie if in the right group. Some have thought I’m an angel and… okay. Pixie is better.

But I’m a pussycat in private and don’t meet many who are gentle with my soft center but less so in the bedroom.

Otherwise I am as stated.