Sylvanna Devlin

I am still trying to understand the point of hurting people for fun. I mean abuse is about power and control and trolls seem to want to control the temper of random strangers for the lols

WTF is wrong with you?

But the one who pulled the trigger on a new kind of weapon, aimed at me, is clearly a jealous woman.

The latest gag from the individual targeting me, is that no matter how successful I get, how pretty I want to make myself, how sexy my body gets, dating me would be dumpster diving.

I don’t do drink, do drugs, or abuse medicine.

I have two cavities that need attention – a tooth to be done with, and need a bridge in that spot.

So some dental work but I take care of my teeth now.

I need to lose 68 lbs (8 inches off the bust) but I’m getting emotional eating under control.

I could do with dancing my way back into fitness.

So I could do with a year to get back to health now I’m not bed ridden.

I could do with ASL and Mathematics classes too.

But my mind, my body, my coping methods apparently don’t matter. Once you’ve been homeless dating you is considered dumpster diving. According to the latest abuse.

It’s presented using filters making women sound like men because the petty little so-and-so who wants to kill me/hurt me has noticed that I am more likely to brush off some jealous crap-head.

So I have been ignoring an AI instructed to repeat the insult till I react.

The hell do they want?

They get upset if I mention suicide – oh no too many visits to the hospital makes me unattractive too. And that’s actually what they want.

No one wants to date a nutcase.

I want off this planet now, okay?

Women use reactive abuse for power and control (some men but it’s preferred by abusive women) and now the three talking points are.

“Pointing out they are behaving badly is abusive”

“Refusing to step in line and ‘obey’ is abusive”

“Dating me is dumpster diving”

So willful ignorance.

I struggle to believe they are so unaware of themselves they don’t know how vile they are being.

They just don’t care.

Anything to destroy my chances of competing in the dating pool I guess.

How unattractive are these women? Maybe being nicer would improve their chances instead of shitting on me.

Ugly personalities do indeed make one less interesting to a potential partner.

But no. I have to find a new way to shut down a new insult because of some jealous woman I’ve never met – using a weapon designed, tested, and refined by targeting me. One that magnified my PTSD into something that makes it difficult to work.

Because even abuse is too hard for her.

She wants to.

She’s just not original and awake 24/7

I suppose I should be glad she’s probably more of a witless git than a deliberate murderer.

But that’s not an enviable position

I have written an entire article about the Troll-Bot weapon used on me:

https://sylvannadevlin.com/troll-bots/