Sylvanna Devlin

I have a wild theory. It’s shared by psychologists though. Just ones we don’t listen to because they’re skinny!

Speaking from the perspective of someone 80 lbs overweight- some medication at first but the rest (and since) caused by emotional eating…

A life with such grief would cause all kinds of attempts at coping mechanisms but I suspect there’s a “bonus” to being bigger.

Besides being able to put your weight into a punch!

Bear with me:

People are assholes when you are overweight. And it’s possible fitness is partially so appealing because the sex iis naturally better with a strong body that has a lot of “staying power”.

Fewer inhabitations help though and these days you can be fit and plump too!

But sometimes some of us would like to be left alone with a shipment of crisps.

We can certainly work on reducing fat shaming. But it might help to realize why some people don’t like losing weight. And that’s because they feel more visible and don’t recognize the mirror anymore!

Are you losing weight because you want to or are people being assholes about it?

Personally I don’t feel fat and glorious because of it. I’m frustrated by my size – particularly when I shop for clothes.

But there may (for some) be an instinct to stay less noticeable when dieting is scuppered.

It’s not necessarily healthy but add in you are the descends of the dust bowel survivors.

Your body is basically saying, “oh hell no. No more famine fuck off”

And your heart might greave from unwanted attention- or an alien in the mirror.

Sure your body self regulates when you cut sugar. I knew this. Didn’t listen because I was too upset to care. And now I set sugar aside for lent my tastebuds improved and as Dr. Lustig would have expected- my appetite dropped tremendously.

I’m not having an an anorexic relapse. I was having a bulimic one. But now my body is just “hand me the vitamins, I’ve got this”

I’m now going through a saggy awkward phase., however,

Visibly so.

But I need this fat to go.

That’s my theory. For some staying overweight helps them feel invisible. Which some don’t want and I don’t have a choice about.

But some do.

As an aside

Three things:

Emotional eating is nigh impossible to avoid once it’s started. I dumped it all onto Diet Coke at one point because everyone complained about it and it made it a guilty pleasure.

I’m getting more sensitive to sweetness again so I’m retraining my brain to crave salt not sweetener. Not that it’s good for me.

But I swear there’s perversity in our psychology that turns anything unhealthy into an illicit substance. (It probably causes a mild adrenaline surge)

Also:

Don’t become adverse to cooking by trying to do to much on low energy days.

And:

Hydration helps weight loss not by suppressing appetite but handing your body what it needs to liquify concentrated fuel

Think of it that way and take a multivitamin.