Sylvanna Devlin

I’ve lost track of the number of destructive periods these terrorists have put me through- all claiming to be new to the weapon.

It wasn’t quite true anyway. Some had been at it quite a while.

Backing off when I began to struggle with a deeper depression and a sense of being unable to bother trying to get better.

The new crop is lying and saying they will stop if I only obey them. But they don’t actually. Or the obedience they seek is unacceptable to me (and anyone in my position) and they still wouldn’t stop.

I was, earlier, doing absolutely fuck all and they started in on us. So it’s certainly not me aggravating the situation.

Unless you count trying to be less depressed.

They don’t stop if I go to the hospital- they follow me to the hospital where very vulnerable people are, both in the psychiatric unit, and the ER I would need to go through.

They don’t stop till I’m near dead as far as activity goes – barely able to care for my surroundings.

Everyone gets fed up of my words of suicide- but they don’t actually stop till I seem on the verge of actually following through.

Then they back off till I start to improve.

And I can’t believe I bother trying again.

But here we are.

Now we’ve established the insult cycle and my particular situation. Let’s go into the bots favorite insult.

When I am actually able to avoid replying or even wanting to (as these days I do a better job until they are so incinderary

“Have I finally broken your spirit.”

Good grief it is a powerful attempt at clawing me back. If I’ve remained calm up to that point anger will ripple below the surface.

I am again being harassed by an AI trained with my writing. Even the thunderstorm was invaded.

I was instantly furious and stated “are you quite done you assholes, there abusive language now fuck off.”

While they argue about reactive abuse and what to post. I find this a good beginning to handling an invasive level abuse that even contains watching and commenting on when (if I can) masturbate.

Now they’re crying and claiming they’re new. They must be if they think they won’t be cited as a good (negative) example.

So here is a point I need to exit this cycle because I want to swear at them endlessly. But they’re “too stupid” not to call me “too stupid” like I don’t know about the GUI. Attempts to hack apple, Microsoft, google, Amazon and whatever bank I use. (On top of attempts to break into PayPal)

Threats to kill my cat are both not new and more believable than they think with a killer troll-bot kicking out cash.

Someone here is already malicious.

And has it out for me.

So yes, I would snap at them.

They do think themselves cleverer than the last bunch. Oh how they do. And find it annoying I know the government will be tracking them down soon enough.

Though I find the new gaslighting “Nigel belongs to the government” unique. Do tell which part are you hacking?

So right, the desire to stay calm is always thwarted by the emotionally stunted experiments on someone these experiments killed last year.

I’m just the survivor of death. A suicide attempt that should have been successful but experimental surgery saved my life. I had met God. It was over.

But science had other ideas.

(As stated so long ago I’m still surprised if anyone forgot. But we have new contenders learning how to use the torture settings on the Troll bot.

Like the fibromyalgia frequency, needing in the brain, pure decibels that already caused my ear canals to collapse after being tortured by an even louder experiment back in 2023

Maybe the one that knocks me out – or the other that stimulates suicidal feelings.

I have (several times now) been through them all and am now confident targeting me puts a bullseye on your computer.

So go ahead and expose your servers. I’d rather not go through this again. And I’m really both too busy and not busy enough for this.

Oh as a reminder. The United States Intelligence Services have full permission to use my entire digital signature, past present and future, to stop criminal activity including terrorism.

Meanwhile I have to start a new post. As this one has got to go up a bit sooner.

I had forgotten how hard it is to avoid the desire to flatten reactive abuse.

Just a sad selfie. (Literally)

I am fortunately not being talked to much, and am not muttering my writing

I haven’t been tortured into a rant either.

So it’s a gladly quiet day.

I haven’t said anything against any specific individual.. But some insults do get blogged about.

The most specific I get is a grumpy neighbor everyone finds grumpy. No names, not even nicknames.

I don’t know why you feel the need to dogpile, swear and comment.

And no one gets that I’m too hacked for a google search to be worth it.

So look it up where?

If it’s for the identity thief who stole my name, trashed my reputation, invaded my privacy with constant surveillance – and might be responsible for my inability to find anything on google…?

Please don’t say anything about “Sylvanna” outside my window. I think you’re talking about me and I’m beginning to feel raw.

Though my sympathies. She has confused everyone quite deliberately.

There are a few of perspectives to view insults from. – Not the light issues, or even the prods from reactive abuse. But ones that dig into your soul.

There’s

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The undeserving need for power and control

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Insult

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Attack on psyche

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Effect can be cumulative

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The need for defensive power. And to regain control of the situation and one’s own mood

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Counter attack

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Your exit point really depends on where you are in the cycle.

Another way to view it?

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Insult

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Attack on psyche (deliberate)

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Is it a one off?

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Yes? . . . . . . . No

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Let it pass…..|

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Likely about to become

Part of an abusive cycle

Exit it

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Here’s a pattern put almost the way I do my creed. A sort of antithesis to my beliefs.

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Anger builds an enflamed emotional wound.

An enflamed emotional wound begets a need for power and control

Control is sometimes maladaptive

Maladaptive behavior can lead to an insult

An insult leads to anger

Anger builds an enflamed emotional wound..

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So forth.

I’m sure you see my point.

The issue is exiting the cycle. If you can leave physically you should do so. If a killer troll-bot is going to follow you that’s less simple. And one needs help.

I always said if the police were called I was running out of a relationship. And I should have called them on Toad long before my neighbors did.

Again they chose to remove him.

He came home, fumbled an apology and suggested sex.

Yeah too late, too little.

I unleashed every word for stupid I could. And on the spot like that it was a considerable number of words.

He buggered off, subdued

I went public with the abuse.

He was suddenly (after earlier suggesting sex) afraid of me.

And out I was.

I called the police in my current situation as has everyone. But this details are more complicated. I can’t leave. I have no where else to go and my problems are now chasing me.

But if hope dies, change. And all I truly have power over is myself- I mean sure, I could manipulate spirits. But I don’t want to. So they like me.

All finding sanctuary here.

So I changed.

We’ll see how a heart of gold can be protected by a shield of Silver

I last tried lent back in 2011. But my energy became difficult for me to handle.

I gave up my pursuit of Christianity the night before Easter back then.

Tricks and signs abounded. I had a guide to listen to.

I’m better able to handle and use vast amounts of energy now – let the earth flow through me. And I do think that (in my case at least) being Vegan helps.

But it doesn’t mean you can’t eat meat and handle energy.

It means I can’t.

Bran presented himself quite a number of times recently. But I’ve met God. I know the one true God is real.

So while I used to worship a powerful animal oracle- as druids do that kind of thing. Abba (as I call the top being) is who I defer to now.

But I’m not really Christian. Though God himself baptized me, and I find that joy necessary to feel whole.

It is still not about any specific tradition of worship.

So I’m loosely faithful and somewhat of a witch. And Bran is back but as a guide this time.

He wants to stick around.

My words of structure are not all in line of any particular church – though I do recommend some join one.

So it seems more reasonable.

I will continue to write the series I promised God. But organized religion is just not for me.

Prayer is however. But my favorite kind is to just sit and be with God. So worry not my soul will suffer.

Lies and lies are being woven round the building.

I’ve been sleeping while someone else’s tongue has been quite busy.

I suppose the truth, which is every word I speak and write, was taking a nap too as far as she is concerned.

Someone has tried every angle I presented here. Every piece. Just to burry me.

It is all so strange.

And all true

What has been discussed? Mutilation I find depressing – but not cited who? Or how, or why

Sex traffickers, troll-bots, gaslighting and abuse. Cults and brainwave alterations, how to compassionately handle disband and treat those walking out.

Do tell, what has she said I said?

And Trump supporters can torture or abandon their position. Refuse orders from a democratic leader- or refuse to protect someone the disagree with in their view.

But this is still America and truth will out.

Like the neighbor who threatened me, when I’m going to the doctor or dentist in a week or so is apparently when they plan to loot my things.

And now a whispering voice demands I be quiet. When I’m not saying a word.

I did ask, “do you really want to threaten me?”

The answer was “I do”

Truth will out

Oop now cat thieves are joining the rest.

This is getting more interesting than I’d like. But I don’t know what they expect.

They should come back to reality.

As an addendum. Apparently my grumpy neighbor who complains about puppies thinks she knows the situation- because she’s been watching a website.

Like I’ve repeated all day.

Truth is coming out.

And what is my other neighbor – The Torturing Trump Supporter doing?

Trying to make me paranoid.

Trying everything that worked once.

Which I’ll leave as is.

But not that my neighbor fails to report a certain someone yelling threats down the hall.

Where do they all get their money from? Stolen work?

Since the thief in the building mentioned texting my sister?

I guess so.

But she probably stays in control through threats. Blaming me when she tries to take someone’s puppy. A sweet little thing that means the world to his Pup-Mom.

That’s according to the listening walls.

I don’t actually have confirmation.

Just more bravado and growling.

Around 1:00am Today.

It’s already been a bit of a long night.

Pity I’m allergic to popcorn – their theatrics make everyone around here pretty certain they got all this in a movie.

But since they’ve hacked into police radio and surveillance I’m certain they think they’re getting away with murder

If the thief and hacker who yells threats down the hall and brings up my sister is quite done stealing puppies to hide in the bathroom?

(at 2:23 am)

The rest of have lives (she destroyed) to repair.

Thought I can’t help wondering if the woman screeching at 2:58am was real. She sounded like the true ringleader when it came to pet snatching.

Again.

Can’t be certain..

I’m still alive.

But grumpy and want to be left alone with my cat.

Here’s an awesome shot!

Having gone over malice in the previous post, let’s focus on the primary weapon of the cruel – lies. And the cognitive dysfunction they are from and cause. It’s part of a cycle we’re spiraling towards.

To remind you, malice is bitterness and cognitive dysfunction mixed with sport.

When it comes to the endless streams of vicious lies the choice is to rebuke or not.

Rebuke of a foul individual can seem to feed a nasty cycle. They now often use reactive abuse – and as others have picked up on its existence – any response is labeled abuse no matter how calm a request to stop.

It’s infuriating.

While some say ignore what false stories they weave. But I tried that and a malicious horrific lie spread to the far winds and I got further targeted by those who chose to believe it of a stranger they only knew others were abusing so they did to.

Certainly one isn’t thinking clearly when just joining the masses. Forming an opinion because the mob has.

And boy does mass cognitive dysfunction frighten me – as it should. The lies spread with no rebuke lead to behavior that lessens the perceived intellect of individuals in the group – and may indeed reduce cognition to just do something because everyone else is.

All feeling justified in their group actions and further malice – because of a lie.

Another question would be the cognitive affects of lies and gaslighting. Lies to the point of reality abuse.

Leaving aside the physical gaslighting techniques, taking and moving objects, gaslighting can make one so suicidal it’s not as hard to gaslight to death, or abuse to oblivion.

The interesting affect of heavy duty gaslighting is in the dream state. Blur reality enough times and one might wake up wondering what really happened.

Did I do that? Or just dream it?

While the truth can be teased out in time, pile gaslighting on and cognitive abuse and the memory gives up and reality feels a little more fluid than it should.

An interesting way to discredit someone.

Finally there is the mass assault of lies, bull spread because it’s known to hurt. Again rebuke and you may be entering into an argument with an AI set to kill.

No rebuke and the pressure increases while those listening in wonder why you offer no correction. Is there truth to what is being said.

Of course the best lies take the truth and shroud it with a narrative that fits some of the facts but to a different meaning.

There is no greater way to anger an individual than a malicious lie save being called a liar!

What do you do?

Again, rebuke of nasty rumors buries you in a mass attack that leads to arguing with real audio but not real people- a lot of them.

No rebuke and the assault heightens till you respond and others believe what is being said.

The worst is trying to navigate a balance. You press back enough and the AI reduces. Too much, too quickly, or too harshly it intensifies.

And woe if you’re willing to argue till you can break it. Everyone who has noticed you’re battling with a troll-bot seems to have failed to notice someone hunting for a shut down.

It’s exhausting. What’s more fighting a stupid bot means that when a live arsehole joins in and I flatten them? My reaction- while justified- seems extreme.

It’s just that one thing.

That is the opening or close of a repetitive cycle of insanity that expects to always have the same results from the same digs. But those seal up, change, become irrelevant.

But the effect of such arguments, with a live individual or an AI is a feeling of a scarred soul and your own cognitive dysfunction.

Remember, while I sometimes consider using the word stupid – and do in place of swearing – intellectually limited is more accurate for those who can’t think. For those who do but have their thinking blurred by mental or physical exhaustion I have cognitive dysfunction which I can suffer from too.

To repeat, being malicious takes bitterness and sport as well. While in both an arsehole and not dysfunctional thinking is about abuse. Either they are using it and think themselves clever. Or it’s levied at you and you’d like to disagree.

How you can avoid incendiary lies and accusations I don’t yet know. And I became fed up balancing a bot. But should I learn how to quickly shut the system down and emphasize the truth I will report back.

Right now I have strangers and neighbors to thank for rebuking those falling for the lies, reality abuse, and gaslighting.