Sylvanna Devlin

I was asked to consider who I’m up against. As I noted an email intended for the thief made it to me.

Up against for what exactly?

My writing- decades of iterative writing- was stolen and you keep programming your AI’s with it.

Now you’re saying you can write like me with AI

Oh but it gets better. Some bitch stole my very valuable laptop while I was in the hospital.

And now a shallow? Thieving fake is hedging her bets that she can pretend she was me.

Sell my work to Microsoft and become famous in my name\

Then lies were spread that I was a monster and just some homeless woman now.

So no one cares about the truth- or what happens to me.

Not after you alienated all my friends with a hacked second account I didn’t use.

You lying, thieving little wench.

Face the mirror each morning- all of you. And face what you have done and your shallow success.

Just remember who you stole from.

Just remember

Suffering from cognitive dysfunction does not mean you are always intellectually impaired. Some otherwise smart individuals lose the ability to think under foul circumstances.

Lack of food, water, shelter, medicine, safety can all cause difficulties with following a train of thought. As can any form of Abuse but in particular reactive abuse

Combined with the fear mongering of sensationalized news, and it’s a sneaky soup for limiting brainy ability.

I’ve been over Reactive Abuse

Barbs, baiting, boundary crossing, needling and wheedling.

Some people are such assholes.

I’m leaving aside heavy duty situations like torture, and physical violence. As well as direct emotional abuse. Those certainly can do nasty work to our abilities to use our minds.

But reactive abuse – particularly combined with an attack on or reduction of basic needs – will do a number on cognition!

Why would someone deliberately try to cause cognitive dysfunction?

Pliability. Those who are melted down are theoretically easier to mold and control. Those who find themselves torn down by henpecking, built up again, torn down again, are thought to eventually step in line.

I’ll die before I’ll let another control me. But that’s personal.

What can we do to address the causes of Cognitive Dysfunction and maybe avoid bitterness form thus potentially malice?

Universal Basic Income, public medical, dental, psychiatric care, housing.

We as a country have the finances – it’s just concentrated. That’s not helping our society handle things wisely.

As has been described by anyone arguing for U.B.I one could work for more. But it’s usually presented as compassionate, which it is, but it’s also practical.

A healthier society is more productive and a strong physical body leads to a strong psychological perspective.

We’d see a reduction in cognitive dysfunction and then likely soothe some malicious individuals and prevent malice from ever forming.

Clearer thinking and less bitterness will take the interest in sport right out of some people.

Now it’s worth specifically addressing fake news and reality abuse. Those two – particularly when combined lead to an intense dent in one’s sense of safety. Especially the same false message repeated loudly by the speaker- even at reduced decibels by the receiver.

We absolutely have to address reality abuse. And the prevalence of fake news, sound bites culture, and sensationalism.

We could also do with curbing the use of AI to replace reading a whole article. My writing (usually) is tightly packed. It is the short version.

I shiver to think what an AI does to it.

Add in a decline in educational standards and expectations that colleges now teach basics that should be mastered in middle school?

We have an epidemic of cognitive dysfunction on our hands.

Americans aren’t any more stupid than those in other countries. In areas there is an anti-intellectual culture- but that could be addressed. And while it’s tempting to write off those who are afraid of learning- maybe we should wonder why.

I taught myself the best way I learn. But I had the support of my parents. And am unusual in my capacity for self directed learning.

But if an educational approach doesn’t take learning and thinking styles into consideration then learning becomes this mysterious, frustrating process that they can’t relate to.

Anti-intellectualism.

If you’re afraid of learning, living in a society with a high prevalence of abuse, and can barely make ends meet if at all. Of course you’re going to feel like you’re trying to think through soup.

Not everyone who has their thought-process dented by society becomes bitter. And of those who do, not all start using abuse to entertain themselves. Malice.

But most with malice are bitter and not thinking straight. They certainly are abusive arses for fun.

It’s worth an aside that some wealthy but malicious individuals become bitter that the world doesn’t serve them like a band of servants to a king.

They resent happiness because nothing will ever be enough for them. And they become or are so abusive the only people who like them are sucking up or pandered to.

Certain individuals come to mind.

They too are suffering from cognitive dysfunction. Though a large number of us wonder if they aren’t also a little intellectually inhibited in the first place.

Just born with a reduced capacity to think. It certainly seems like that’s possible.

I do wonder about someone going into the bathroom expecting her words to echo back but all I hear is the sly, repeated sound bite “come back to reality”

It makes others fear me because they believe she has a point beyond abuse and sport. So I get more abuse directed at me.

No one knows what she’s talking about but it sounds bad. Groups and mobs form because when suffering from cognitive dysfunction one needs a leader and my goal is to help people with self directed lives.

I want a smarter society.

And it’s possible.

If people were more careful about who they let do the thinking and have their basic needs met.

Not everyone suffering from cognitive dysfunction is cruel.

Some are tired, thirsty, hungry, cold, hot, unsheltered, scared, or stressed out

It’s hard to think straight when homeless or a step up.

No one wants to admit they’re not thinking clearly when navigating poverty. But I have experienced dented and returned cognition.

It’s not a permanent state for a lot. My PTSD still has me hanging on a financial thread and my neighborhood is questionable. But my cognition is returning.

Sure it’s not a flattering description. But it’s not really safe at night and just last week we got a note requesting the thievery stop as my problem with items being stolen from me is shared.

Someone is waiting for me to leave to hit what she called “the jackpot” Stealing sentimental but old items I’ve clung to for years.

It makes it more intimidating to go to the doctors and dentist. As I don’t really go anywhere else.

But the crime here is desperation for some, not as much for fun. Though I may be considered a target out of cruelty.

It would explain why even the scent of rotting wood in the halls is blamed on my commode. Like you can smell a significant fart down the hall as my commode is sealed but vegans are gassy.

I’m a scapegoat and punching bag for many here. Those who aren’t trying to get me kicked out for no better reason than stigma. It’s awful and while these days I don’t necessarily wake up wishing I hadn’t, one prod sends me spiraling now. So some do just that – for their entertainment.

Cruelty requires malice and does tend to contain cognitive dysfunction but goes beyond just not thinking clearly or enough.

Malice is bitterness, cognitive dysfunction and sport.

While intelligent individuals can be malicious bastards, they have cognitive errors when it comes to making compassionate decisions.

But here on the ground I’m dealing with nastiness that is wrapped up in bitterness, the need to cut into another poppy- taller or not, and toying with tempers. People who find abuse entertaining.

So I suppose while all abuse is about power and control it does not all come from malice. But that miserable attitude does always lead to abuse.

Trolls have malice. As do those firing a trollbot in my direction “to see what happens”. Apparently we haven’t actually escaped the days of experimenting on people.

That’s pretty sodding malicious.

I reach a point of feeling I can’t survive the bullying here. I lived through everything in Sonoma county, homelessness, escaping traffickers and enduring gaslighting. It was all drawing to a close of feeling suicidal.

But a malicious wench in the building with 24/7 access to make negative commentary out of her desire for fun?

It’s too much.

Recognizing cruelty and living with cruel individuals does take understanding that otherwise intelligent or no, they are experiencing cognitive dysfunction in the social sphere.

What can we do?

Address, curb, ignore, bore

The cruel require their basic needs met then some therapy to handle the rest.

What do we have control over personally? That’s a good question. For another time.

America doesn’t have a problem with stupid people. It has a problem with fear mongering and cognitive abuse. As well as their basic needs being denied or held back by societal pressure.

Cognitive dysfunction is running amuck and individuals in power who use fear to control are causing it.

So everyone thinks everyone else is stupid. When really there are spheres we can’t think clearly in because our energy is devoted to survival and depleted by fear.

It’s easy to want to snap at a stupid troll-bot. Those things don’t have basic needs and are only as clever as those they talk to or for.

So not very by the time they’re done with abuse.

But people are relying too heavily on AI summaries of everything- not just google results. And as a result our basic need for safety is being dented.

No one really feels safe with anyone else because we’re all beginning to wonder why they can’t sodding read.

And they become abusive.

So their targets end up with cognitive dysfunction no matter how smart to start with, they can’t fully read anything, rely on an AI summary and that summary doesn’t always quite get to the truth or give the correct/full answer.

So forth

We can try to improve AI but until we start viewing others as a potential friend before we view them as a potential enemy? We’re getting nowhere.

Fear mongering absolutely has to stop.

Then basic needs have to be provided.

Call Americans stupid once those are resolved and we still have problems with cognitive dysfunction.

Other than that, please call it like it is, this is one abusive society and we’re not getting along well because everyone is either abusing out of cognitive dysfunction, or have cognitive dysfunction as a result of being abused.

America doesn’t have a stupid populace they have an abused populace.

That’s what happens when people become commodities and dollar signs in a society with this level of capitalism.

According to an anti-intellectual nearby, walking out, foolishly commenting on private notes in a hacked account. “stupid people are real and you are one of them, come back to reality.”

Sounds like one abusive wench with such bad cognitive dysfunction she doesn’t know how to recognize intellect.

It happens.

How to handle reactive abuse from those with cognitive dysfunction is another issue. They often respond to a point that isn’t being made. And their motivation for anti-intellectual consideration is fear.

I use mighty big words she doesn’t understand. That scares her because she doesn’t know what I’m saying. She uses an AI instead of improving literacy and those aren’t good at interpreting the truth.

It’s not making capitalism any easier to live with. Maybe arguing we move on. But not putting up with the status quo.

I mean what does she really object to? Someone said “apparently Melissa is writing about stupid people” (which I’m not) and she took it personally.

Which is more revealing than she realizes as my argument was that stupid people were really regular people with cognitive dysfunction. It doesn’t seem horrific.

But no, at 5:52am it warranted an insult, apparently.

This is part one in a series to answer a question about handling insults. So I suppose I should thank her for the material!

Just yesterday the harassment and bullying lead to an intense blood pressure spike and Doctors orders were to hive off to urgent care.

It wasn’t ER worthy but I needed to be checked out before it was

She has to be cautious however and I tend not to be. That’s part of me and does not warrant attempts to “correct me”

I was overwhelmed because I was so tired I needed sleep before I could navigate getting there.

So I opted on a nap instead.

As I was waking, half of Oregon started harassing me. Calling me a stupid bitch, and a child. Because apparently they had started insisting I go while I was sleeping.

They were so obnoxious, so rude, so wrong, and so invasive I couldn’t face being around another person at all.

I ended up becoming furious and loud and that puts my housing in jeopardy because my neighbor doesn’t know the difference between protecting and shouting.

That’s after spending at least sixteen hours with several people’s micromanaging, micro-criticism, and micro-commenting directed at me – and the assholes who blame me because they think I need to be told how to do every day when really my PTSD began to spike.

That level of that behavior, and that many people doing so, gave me nerve pain. Of course my blood pressure would spike. I was in intense pain!

You shouldn’t know what’s going on with me and it’s none of your fucking business. You are not helping you are abusing and your name calling and insults make it worse

Learn your place.

Respect my boundaries.

Attend to yourself not me.

Because you caused the situation and then you bitched so much the pain emulated a heart attack.

You will end up killing me if you don’t keep your nastiness to yourself. You might think that being a bullying arsehole and concern policing is being nice but it’s anything but.

I am a fucking adult. Some individuals do know when I need help remembering something but not most of the women out there. And for fuck sake learn to take no for an answer.

Consent matters for everyone, doesn’t it?

I am 47, Bipolar, with fibromyalgia and several neurological differences like ADHD and dyslexia. I’ve been treated for mental illness for 22 years. I have missed medication all of once when homeless and went to a walk-in clinic because I was desperate never to have that happen again.

I know mental health like it’s water. I know the therapy techniques. I know the stages of depression. And micromanaging is not encouraging and not welcome.

I’m fucking smart as anything and learn for fun. Do not harass me because I don’t learn the same way, and my writing has minor typos (some caused by autocorrect)

I am a dyslexic writer and I’m good.

Leave me alone.

I have a lot of philosophical posts to write. Hopefully that’s better than the excitement of last week!

I kind of wrote myself into mental fatigue so for now. Here’s a picture of Tabitha.

If your vision got blurry and your forehead began to feel pressure – or worse you experienced a white triangle and now suddenly feel better than ever?

You are in a vulnerable situation.

Protect yourself from sound.

Get some sleep once it all settles down to fully recover. Do not sleep when you are close to what Scientology calls “getting clear”

It’s not your choice to have sound assault your brain. It is damaging to your psyche and could lead to suicide.

Eat

Omega 3 at least and 6 would be best

Zinc

Fast glucose of some kind orange juice or the like.

Any source or cholesterol you can. – your brain is sentient fat.

Slower carbohydrates

Do not take benedryl, or any mentally slowing medicine. Alcohol is out too.

If you are anxious, lent aside, the right sugar fat salt fat combination has a dopamine affect on the brain

Shortbread is good

God will understand.

So far I only know two.

Your vision gets blurry.

You might have pressure in your forehead.

I am not certain who you heard today. But I suspect it wasn’t me.

If you are all quite done making noise about whatever noise you heard.

The rest of us are trying to relax