• I was a writer. Now I seek more to life.

    I apologize for the confusion.

    I am not a whistleblower. I’ve never been in a position to be.

    People started talking about what I knew so I was a bit sarcastic because I thought it was clear I wasn’t someone with that status

    I am not and have not been a government worker- even as a consultant.

    I have been an observant victim.

    I was suicidal, not thinking clearly, being harassed to the edge of death.

    What ai did do was to make a clear summary of everything I had already written about on my blog.

    The information was there but it felt like no one was connecting the dots.

    I outed a spy, and a criminal, and as a result have organized crime and more dangerous groups pretty pissed at me.

    But the gaslighting was getting out of control and we needed those threads to line up.

    I have some frightening people not so happy with me. I don’t want to be your enemy too.

    I’m pudgier but me.
  • I was a writer. Now I seek more to life.

    Someone who blows the whistle is not a traitor

    Someone considered a casualty of war (with other victims) is not a traitor

    Someone who loves this country as much as I do is not a traitor.

    If it’s America you love. I am in good company.

    We started with good ideals. And some of us still believe in them.

    My stalker is was the NSA consultant. It’s scary what he can do. He didn’t care who he hurt as he toyed with me. Even if that meant poking holes in our security.

    I have confidence the NSA can shore up the leaks. But until then please respect they have a very difficult job to do. Made worse by those who are “just curious.”

    Respect our secrets.

  • I was a writer. Now I seek more to life.

    Apparently I need to be extremely clear so I will try to be breif.

    The NSA had a consultant that placed hooks in Americas entire digital life.

    Then he had a proof of concept – people could pay to examine my life in detail with devastating results on my level.

    But the hooks are in now. Everyone’s security is at risk.

    Including those in the government high up in the chain. We could go to war because how manipulative those “trained players are”

    We might already have.

    I sounded the alarm with others in 2023, I identified the weaknesses in 2024. In 2025 the gamification of hacking led to my suicide.

    Now we’re at full on crisis with our heads in the sand.

    And Trump declared me a casualty of war.

    I still kinda tried to limit how clear I made this.

    But the danger has reached an acute level and officials I trusted are told to lie.

  • I was a writer. Now I seek more to life.

    I’m the chew toy, the victim, the target.

    And people pay to fuck with me, to drive me insane, to annihilate my life.

    They called it “Paranioa”

    I believe somewhere a Rana is involved. All I know is rumors of ill tempered dogs.

    I was asked to pick a target, a deceitful curiosity of theirs really.

    I grumbled it should be the person who started it up on me.

    “It will be lethal next time” (it already is)

    “You can’t pick players!”

    Interesting.

    Maybe everyone can figure out the rest.

    Sylvanna Devlin. I’m a writer not a terrorist
  • I was a writer. Now I seek more to life.

    Here’s the thing.

    The more you petty, cruel, dishonest, entitled, privileged… individuals; lie to officials like police, compliance teams, educational institutions and businesses?

    Not just about me, but all the targets of your shallow, vindictive “tall tales”.

    The more gossip and rumors spat about a person more for “the entertainment value” than the truth? No matter how wrong. How twisted. How much your idea of fun is at another’s expense?

    If you are a woman? You and your gaggle of gossiping geese are directly responsible for the discrediting of all of us in the eyes of the judicial system.

    You want trust? Respect? Equality? Don’t lie and get us all unable to have the truth come out.

    #yesallwomem

    #metoo

    Remember those? Fix your shit before you break American feminism.

    And yes.

    Both apply to me.

    No more bullshit please

    Addendum

    Or has this situation been topsy turvy with women at each other’s throats while a bunch of “incells” high five?

    Or worse? A bunch of prepubescent assholes not old enough to be gross in that way and are gross in a different way?

    How many women are you spying on and accusing her? You little assholes.

  • I was a writer. Now I seek more to life.

    Though the now is worse. Some game of yours? Targeting the perceived poor, mentally ill and homeless?

    It explains the lies surrounding my family home in Petaluma when the abuser in chief of this ever-developing game claimed I was just “squatting”

    When the hacking, stealing, gaslighting and screwing with reality( made me actually homeless everyone took their chances to destroy me.

    And seem a bit bothered to have failed.

    And now I’m waiting for a move in date after giving notice again the little shits involved have claimed I am homeless again.

    And if not? They’ll just make sure I never make it to my new home. Either they don’t take me in, despite legal and above board application and financial records. Or I kill myself

    I resent on their behalf you think so little of them. That they would succumb to your gossip and lies.

    And I would comment further on the need for patience. If I wasn’t certain you’d rather I die. So you’ll harass and gaslight them hoping to get them to fob me off.

    Is that your plan?

    Your hope?

    It all falls through.

    Or they are so inundated with work that I believe your lies that they fell for yours about me. And I die then.

    But could I please hurry up.

    You want to make sure I’m homeless when you succeed at manslaughter.

    Not that being housed stopped you.

    My suicide only put you on pause.

    But you keep claiming “it’s other hotels too”. And impoverished buildings I assume?

    What is this? Some “hunger games”? Inhaven’t read it but assume it made a point about privilege

    As far as I can tell you take a woman – probably always a woman. Prop them up in shelter for a while – all she has to do is survive.

    And then she doesn’t. Or is arrested. Raped and killed. Thrown out. Maybe makes it to the hospital but most likely dies.

    Oh? Unfair to think you capable?

    You made that grave of yours deep enough on your own.

  • I was a writer. Now I seek more to life.

    As an addendum

    Have you counted the body bags you’ve filled? I don’t see why merry go rounds are shut down – perhaps reasonably so – and this is seen as okay?

    Ignoring that emotional wounds last a a lifetime and steal the childhoods they don’t mangle. Letting anyone “blow off steam” through real live abuse, begets abusive individuals.

    Play a game that is consensual and not of personal insult, destruction, hacking and defamation.

    You are souring all our futures.

    No matter how old you are or are pretending to be.

  • I was a writer. Now I seek more to life.

    My Maine Coone baby

    Tabitha is okay, despite attempts otherwise.

    Incidentally

    It’s just a theory.

    But if hooks have been added to testing staging points? (As I don’t know the wording but you get the idea.) Holes meant to make testing easier seem to have hard to shake and individualized issues.

    I would have to guess it’s super confusing because some would seem to take next level skill and expertise. But then there’s extra stuff, useless bloat that seems more like the suggestion of a WYSIWYG editor.

    Who the fuck are these guys? How do they know so much? How can they work with this many platforms and openings.

    If I can have 35 books lined up – all series set in a different voice.

    One person can indeed match that and exceed in speed in the technical arena.

    If that’s all you are concerned by? There probably is no one as capable as Rapture. Or whomever Joshua Sonnikson- Andrew Davidson-ETC.

    Never underestimate someone. Particularly not someone you oppose. I don’t like the application but I doubt there to be an equal challenger. Let alone better in the technical field.

    He still lost a language based game to me and I didn’t exactly have a good time being forced into it.

    My language talent, aptitudes and skills are on the significant side. But less so if you don’t value them.

  • I was a writer. Now I seek more to life.

    Some people have enjoyed watching me be annihilated.

    Drama crafted for their entertainment. Always with the plan to drive me to suicide.

    Some enjoyed the will she, won’t she kill herself, escape, learn the actual truth

    Joshua-Andrew Davidson- arranged access, stalkers, and “games.”

    People hacked me, stole from me, toyed with me, for the lols. All the while Joshua drove me into a life of filth. His final blow meant to see me commit suicide because he was not so stupid he really thought Mary could make a whore out of me.

    It was just a way to drive fantasy in viewers – players.

    He gamified hacking all the way up the chain to national surveillance – necessary for some but a playground for his pets.

    People gossiped, gawked and shat on me – calling me such vile things. And seeing who “fell for it”

    My reputation destroyed some even began to believe their own bullshit and felt I deserved the scorn of assholes and fuckwits – and the disappointment and fear of the uninitiated.

    As for the love interests? They clearly knew the truth of what was happening and didn’t successfully intervene.

    Some also playing around.

    Some were real people whipped up by gaslighters. People who could only keep me alive and find no way to stop the disasters swallowing me whole.

    I am the most defeated feeling undefeated champion and bets get placed and lies, and psych ops continue.

    Because there was no stopping the debrie of the train wreck that is this side of American morality- at least in some.

    And I call foul they consider themselves part of anything great. They are part of the depravity, foolishness and lawlessness that have dragged this entire country into shit.

    From an English born American? Stop abusing our country’s reputation and step aside. Some of us have a clean up job thanks to you.

    PS

    Indeed it was just confirmed. People pay money for the access to harass me.

    The person you enjoy fucking over?

    Despite PTSD would still like to write her books please.

    These ones

    PPS

    Your “access” lead to my sisters real suicide. I made it clear, quite clear. I was a real person with real family.

    Which is smaller now.

    Devastated

    And will never heal from that loss.

  • I was a writer. Now I seek more to life.

    Search this blog for “Brain” I can’t find everything. But it has a lot.

    You need quick glucose. Slow glucose. Omega 3 and 6 if you can cholesterol and zinc.

    PS

    You need potassium and magnesium too.

    (Sorry I had forgotten)

    Also, these help.

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