Sylvanna Devlin

Drink some water

Nibble on some food

Get some sleep

Give yourself some time.

No one snaps back from that

And it’s not your fault you’re a little out of touch from everything. Not just reality but who you are. What’s going on.

If you disassociate so badly you’re unsure of your name it’s okay. You will get yourself back. The attack is just that skillful

Try drawing this as a gateway back to reality. It sounds stupid but the under over and trying to get a perfect circle and triangle size might be the only thing you can focus on right now

That’s okay. It’s a cognitive attack. You’ll get it back.

This is simple in design but takes enough focus to get cognition purring along and if you mess up? Who cares? It’s a circle and a triangle in a vaguely Celtic knot pattern. Toss the page and try again.

It’s interesting enough when you’ve been knocked offline to fight boredom and return cognition.

Which you need.

Because that experience is scary.

If you need to, call 911. Show them your ID and say you barely recognize your own name.

They’ll take you to the ER

They’ll arrange a stay in a ward. There are people who simply can’t sleep. People whose divorce caused a breakdown and those with mental illness.

The nurses will be very gentle with you. And if you ask for a journal they can usually get one. Some might even be able to find pencil crayons.

Drawing this symbol can be very soothing. They’ll let you continue once you are in a safe place to recover.

When I needed to do that I had dissociated and disconnected so much I thought I was a dimensional traveler on a movie set!

I recovered.

But I heard voices for a little while.

Just not forever.

If you’re scared to tell them what you secretly believe that’s okay. You still have a thread attached to your normal life.

Just tell them you’re dissociating so heavily you don’t feel attached to your own name.

No reasonable psychiatric personnel will get pushy with you. No one can force open your inner world. And they don’t need to.

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P.S On sound:

Partially disconnected intercom systems are a menace. Can’t help wondering if they’ve stayed disconnected.

It would certainly explain a weird buzzing here when I first moved n and a bell next door.

As they’re not digital they’d be capable of “warmth”. So lots of frequencies most digital output didn’t even send to a speaker. I don’t know about what digital speakers receive and blast.

Sound goes out from your mouth into a microphone (digital or analog). Out of the mic or a computer/other instrument, in to a mixing board or other way of processing it. Out again to a speaker that receives it and blasts it.

Always out from what produces sound into the next stage even if that’s just your ear!

Digital devices were more limited.. They flattened audio and used to be unable to use all frequencies. I don’t know if Dolby labs ever fixed that!

What I do know is we could all be going nuts trying to find remaining google plays and tobacco tin sized transponders when every room has a built in speaker.

Maybe give the guy who hit oblivion some space and investigate old technology too..

As a side note, audio cable can “hum” if crossed with an electric wire. Even both insulated. Don’t do it! The noise gets a lot more noticeable at higher decibels!

P.PS

Now a pissed off message to “users”.

The mentally ill are not lessor or your chew toy. Sod off with your stigma. You vile, disgusting monsters.

Don’t play with me.

Don’t tempt god or my psyche with “let me try” or “be careful”

Oh hehe

Haha funny

“She always makes a mistake when that’s said”.

Guess it’s just that annoying.

You’ll get the luck you deserve, I don’t even need to curse you.

It’s called Karma you stupid assholes.

And yours is so bad your energy reeks

But because I’m bipolar with severe PTSD you think I’m “fair game”.

To play with, invade my privacy, lie about, to manipulate and control, make worse, whatever sick vile game you’re playing next.

I guess we know your next victim has a mental illness.

You are using a terrorist weapon first designed to make sane people experience mental illness. For some the effect is possibly permanent.. Particularly as a form of PTSD.

It’s possible to recover but takes time and licking your wounds.

And you are using on people already suffering.

Why because you were actually the intended victims?

Don’t be so stupid.

Also if you are being victimized by the peanut gallery they’ve proven they’re vile thus their opinion on you is irrelevant.

P.P.P.S

Apparently my neighbors are so spiteful they’ll try to ask a question so it sounds like I’m answering someone else. My apologies to whomever was in the hall. I only know you might exist because they can’t stop gloating.

Wee

They have so much fun being abusive arseholes.