(An abstract more points out the interesting problem that one plans to pursue – keeping it in the realm of ideas – and not an in depth exploration, analysis, or presentation of a solution) Data exhaustion Too many data points make forming relevant information more difficult and thus knowledge of the subject never develops. They…

I had sat in my front lawn – all of it was real, or none of it. I was swirling in a world that made no sense and the truth was, some of it was. But not any parts made publicly available. So much of the torment, the theft, the threats of disfigurement, gaslighting, hacking…

Reliving a version of what happened in 2023 made me think I was in September. Any year would do. I called February October. Which helped me understand my current situation better. It makes sense the past is haunting me. And I have a shared reputation from a fucking bitch. “Snap back to reality.” It’s not…

Best sentence said to me (and it was actually facetious) “You’e problem is you’re trying to please everyone and I’m not happy about that. Good day sir, I said good day. Don’t mind me. “Please don’t kill yourself but you’re not allowed to cope” That’s the message. Fuck off.

Yeah, whatever.

Some science is ridiculous. Like flight. Some try anyway and don’t succeed. So it’s still ridiculous. Then the wright brothers get off the ground – in something that flys but looks ridiculous! I every once in a while have a ridiculous question. Not because it’s the end of all understanding. But the process is interesting.…

I don’t want to post today. I don’t want to be alive. So here. What I look like when I’m out of “fucks” to give.

I am struggling with severe and ever worsening PTSD. My nightmares are roaring darkness at me ever more so. Even in sleep there’s no escape. I start to emerge from sleep and the first thing I hear is how evidence has been falsified and publicly posted. “Good luck getting into the University of Washington now”…