Sylvanna Devlin

The “popcorn music” that makes it feel like popcorn exploding in your brain? If you’re mentally ill it instantly induces rage that stops as soon as the sound does.

Or something more subtle?

Gaslighting by deleting, returning, and changing work.

Perhaps a dissertation.

Maybe there’s constantly a low grade noise. It alters the brain to be constantly bombarded and if done long enough the brainwaves adapt and you have a “where’s the demon gone” sensation when it stops.

But if no one listens it’s not you altering your work. And it seems quiet enough to them?

Rage can follow.

And actions so regrettable suicide follows that.

I avoided such things by avoiding people. I had pulled back from the brink before. I knew how to shut down before violent urges became violent acts.

But still killed myself with the final words “No one listens”

You did this to my family.

You drove my sister to suicide.

You will find the truth surrounds you and squeezes in like a vice, someday.

I hope it’s soon.