Sylvanna Devlin

I think I’ve crafted some confusion.

I do have books intended to help others. Fiction to communicate, Non-fiction to relate.

But kindly sod off when planning to be around me in person.

Well that’s a bit harsh.

I want to be alone with my writing and my cat. I mutter but don’t really have need of conversation. I’m done.

Could that be not around anyone else save one?

Well my idea of a hot Date is holing up under bed covers with delivered restaurant food, a big laptop screen and a movie. Some even stream new ones.

I do miss physical contact. I’m very touch oriented in the way I communicate and receive love.

But I’m not holding my breath.

Groceries can be delivered. Clothing. Anything really. I look like I do for my own satisfaction. I dress nicely, wax, have nice nails, try to be relatively pretty. Because I like it.

My fragrance sensitivity friendly perfume oil is worn every day. I look after myself and intend to improve weight loss, physical fitness,dental work, contacts and if it was only safe to have a shower!

Put myself together.

But I don’t go anywhere, am not headed to a party, don’t need anymore adventures. I really am doing this because I feel better looking good but am fine with pictures and video appointments.

I suppose in a year or so I could vlog.

I do really want to help the world see itself differently. But some don’t want that. And some grow hostile and some grow curious when I talk about an approach.

I have to pay attention to my past. My favorite walk was alone in foggy woods, my most successful environment was writing quietly by myself, and I enjoyed being the only person in the movie theater, if we go further back? The quiet of a stage when it’s naked and there’s no audience.

What I miss most about my relationship was waking up early, giving the sleeping soul a hug then I went and made him breakfast and a packed lunch.

I would then write in the morning at an hour most find indecent.

Physical contact is important to me. But conversation isn’t. Putting myself together makes me happy. Going anywhere around other people is unappealing. Dancing for an audience of one sounds very romantic

So if someone entered my life who wants to be with me but doesn’t really want to be around others? I could easily see not being around others together.