Sylvanna Devlin

(Again)

My sort of ex tied his asshole AI to my bpm and blood pressure – but specifically BPM.

Like all people my BPM goes up if I get upset no matter what I do to control my response, my reaction is human, and I get upset sometimes.

I am upset by judgmental, micromanaging, nitpicking, controlling bullshit as it reminds me of my ex spouse. They wouldn’t leave me alone and it got dangerous to both of us!

Other things that are more common are upsetting.

But acting like my ex is also a problem.

Now.

Ghosts are my friends, spiders are cute pest control but cat toys as well. Snakes are delightful and anything dangerous in nature really is just so because they want to be left alone.

Boy can I relate.

As my semi-ex (a different one – the terrorist) and his associate have already done everything to obliterate me.

Whatever it is they say they’ll do? They already arranged it, or will whether I play along or not.

I’ve had everyone even my family manipulated into rejecting me. I’ve been homeless. I’ve had my writing stolen and shat on. I’ve had my painful past investigated and pulled apart. And I’ve had cats killed by that assholes group.

I have no reason to be afraid of anything.

Other than being trapped with my ex spouse or similar.

Have you been manipulated into the last terror for me?

Probably.

Leave me alone.

I’m starting to recover and that’s upsetting to everyone. I guess.

And I’m done.

With all this bullshit!

Leave me alone!

P.S.

If you, like me, regularly come into contact with assholes who don’t know anything but think they do…

You are indeed more likely to be more micromanaging and controlling, because fuck. What else do you do when everyone else is acting like a fucking petulant teen?

Well. While understandable it’s not doing anyone any favors. As long as people – uneducated and educated leave others to learn on their own they will.

People have to be free to make mistakes.

It’s the only true way really.

Eventually people figure out how to ask for help.

But no one is happy being everyone’s parent and no one is happy being treated like children. And bystanders wonder, the fuck?

If the uneducated stop trying to control the state (and I mean state or Oregon) it would indeed be nice.

But that’s not happening this way.