No matter how long I look at a picture, I don’t recognize myself. If we take out the pink of youth and good lighting. Here it is, yet again. My favorite picture of me. I’m a good 90 lbs heavier- some of it muscle. But the closest I recently came was this. I want to…

No powder – couldn’t be arsed. Slight eyeshadow and mascara (the latter is running out) Nude lip gloss (as in clear) Is that gold in those Hazel mood changing eyes? Or are you just Fae to seem? Trying to recreate the wet look I think it’s better from the other side And dry again I…

I have a twitch that looks like a sneer What my mouth should look like And the twitch! If I don’t chill out my face really will freeze that way! Well… And because my cat is cute!

I spent a good 16 hours (admittedly with some breaks) tidying up the mess in here yesterday. And now I’m too exhausted to do anything. I still have trash to take out, recycling to be rid of, dishes to do, and maybe I should even vacuum. But meh. Fibromyalgia says, “Too bad, so sad, I’m…

Not much to report on the relationship front so here’s a toast to all the single but love-sick puppies! (And great fuck off dragons that turn into a pussycat or pixie at will!) It’s none alcoholic and I’ve been up 9 hours.

I say that more for the characters in, “The Stranger”. By Camu. They were stuck in a state of pervasive boredom and didn’t really care if they lived or died. Either would be fine. For me I have plenty to do. But no energy for it. I have a serious case of the blahs. It…

I’ve been staring at my pictures a bit. I’m losing weight and I’ve been on the chubby side since about 2008. So when I was 30. That’s quite a while ago! I have propagnesia and my own face isn’t one I usually pay attention to. So I just… I hope I look okay. This isn’t…

Some book at some point suggested there’s no real reason why we can’t eat leftovers for breakfast- or an other dinner food. Portion really depends on if you’re fueling for the day or recovering from it. Personally I’d like lunch portions to be heftier and kind do both – If I eat lunch at all…

To skip out on current events and pets suddenly wondering why it’s so quiet and freaking out. Because as much as we might love a sudden calm, out in the wild, sudden calm was danger. A predator. Every animal intuitive sense, primal and true. Everything else has run away or is hiding. “Come on stupid…

Some places (like England) have equal opportunity sniping. But in America theres an unusual power struggle happening beneath everyone’s noses and it’s god awful. I’m speaking from experience because my ex spouse treated me (female at birth, fuck you.) as the man of the house and he was sometimes “such a women” (There’s a detail…