The toxic dormitory style living continues wherein everyone listens in on my private conversations and comments on them afterwards. Earlier I went into the no-win scenario and have an even better example. I was literally lying down, my thoughts my own. No muttering. No ASL. No studying. Just trying to sort my feelings silently. Oh…

I have reached the point with my laundry that I am now wearing gym clothes. And as I have a few exercise skirts left I have still put it off! I fell asleep clothed again and when changing did the sniff test. The skirt was fine but another day would make it pretty darn ripe!…

What is it about American culture that makes abuse so prevalent it’s normalized and goes unrecognized? Individuals snipe and prod but escape by saying “I’m just playing”. Yeah like a cat batting a mouse around before killing it. Wit, teasing, banter and flirting seem to have fallen out of favor and sardonic baiting is all…

If we understand all abuse is about control- including reality abuse. And gaslighting is about disguising abuse – so a sign someone wants control, how do we maintain kindness and gentle behavior without having to be a punching bag. I need to know. I’m close to giving up entirely. My cat came and reminded me…

There is often confusion about negative emotions. They make us feel bad just having them – which is also part of survival. Things that make you so angry you feel hatred are to be avoided! Anger is a fight response to fight, flight, freeze, or flee. You are under attack as far as your psyche…

Bullshit Peace

There’s this gaslighting too. If we move on to fembots I will worry.

Without going into specifics. I have regret and I need to. Even spells that are both a blessing and a curse can be complicated. And broken by the will and wishes of the one weaving words. But while I swore with them. No energy actually went to applying them. It was still too much and…

By the way This post has more details Check it out. It is indeed making me a bit nervous.

Without going too deeply why I am again approaching Christianity. Since I died and met God – in all his indescribable beauty. It seemed right to try again. With the church I feel closest to. With spring comes the idea of Repentance. And I certainly have plenty to need to pray for forgiveness. But there…